[matilda] On a Man who devoted himself to Revolution

[APG]

On a Man who devoted himself to Revolution

Call it a bipolar personality complex or a narcissistic syndrome
It is a worm eating me from inside out
This need to draw attention to myself
In endless pursuit of freedom but I'm trapped
Bored to the bone by the burden of the self
Who must be fed, relentlessly, mercilessly

To placate my great loss. I can’t stop
Hating and loving Her, whose love was already lost
When I was born, I know, long time ago
Before this thirst that can’t be quenched
Before this endless pursuit where I lay
Down like a dog whilst standing up

Self-righteous  is other name for the Worm
But how to unburden me, release me from beyond
When dogs are barking following my route
And once again I rise, believe me, fresh,
Euphoric from the ecstatic window which reflects

This very face that I have learnt to love
And hate alternatingly, like Her who was the cause
Of remarkable Seed to Grow and Grow
To become me, a babe in times forlorn,

(.........)

So when I reach the other stroke the farthest shore
In pendulum-like oscillation
I let my tears run down my cheeks
Endlessly as I have strived to let my joy take flight

But tears sometimes turn into fists
Or turns and twists of unknown paths
Dark lands where my urges are rejected
By those whose love I long for most,
By those who like myself trod on this Earth
Eaten by a Worm from Inside out.



(A poem by Vegan Mole learning to rhyme)