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<font color="#999999"><big><font face="Arial Black">it's <big><font
color="#000000">UP! 2</font><font color="#ff00ff">69</font></big> =
two hundred & <font color="#ff00ff"><big><big><b>69!</b></big></big></font>
so it <i>has </i>to be <big><font color="#ff00ff">sex</font></big>,
which we haven't touched for some time but which, along with <font
color="#ff00ff"><b><big><big>love</big></big></b></font>, is
indisputably at the heart of everything :) as tim leary pointed out
years ago, for example, 2 hydrogen atoms DON'T fancy making water with
just ANY old oxygen atom; they're <i>attracted </i>or they're not.
just like everything alive.<br>
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so this is <font color="#ff00ff">SEX 1,</font> <font color="#ff00ff"><font
color="#999999">the <i>personal</i>.</font> UP! 269// SEX 2</font>,
the <i>political</i>, follows shortly.<br>
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<small><small><small><small><small><big><big><big><b>Get <span
style="color: fuchsia;">UP!</span>
<i style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">Stand
Up For Your Rights! </i></b><b><i><span style="font-size: 7pt;">(<span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);">and
everybody else's too of course! :)</span></span></i></b></big></big></big></small></small></small></small></small><br>
<small><small><small><small><small><big><big><big><big><b
style="text-decoration: underline; font-weight: bold;"><i><span
style="color: fuchsia;">u can't understand the world
without
innerstanding yourself</span></i></b></big></big></big><span
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</span></big></small></small></small></small></small><br>
<small><small><small><small><small><b><span
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face="Arial"><span style="font-size: 14px;"></span></font><font
face="Arial"><span style="font-size: 14px;"></span></font><font
face="Arial"><span style="font-size: 14px;"><small><small>All
truth passes through three stages.</small></small></span></font><span
style="font-family: Arial;"></span><small><small><small><small><small><b><span
style="font-size: 48pt; font-family: "Arial Black [monotype]"; color: fuchsia;">UP!</span><span
style="color: fuchsia;"> </span></b><b><span
style="font-size: 24pt; color: fuchsia;">269</span><span
style="color: fuchsia;"> </span></b></small></small></small></small></small><br>
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style="font-family: Arial;">1</span><font face="Arial"><span
style="font-size: 14px;"><small><small>,
it is ridiculed. </small></small></span></font><small><small><small><small><small><b><span
style="font-size: 48pt; font-family: "Arial Black [monotype]"; color: fuchsia;"></span></b></small></small></small></small></small><small><small><small><span
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">2</span><font face="Arial"><span
style="font-size: 14px;"><small><small>, it
is violently opposed. </small></small></span></font><small><small><small><small><small><b><span
style="font-size: 48pt; font-family: "Arial Black [monotype]"; color: fuchsia;"></span></b></small></small></small></small></small><small><small><small><small><small><big
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style="color: gray;">16 12 07</span></big></big></big></big></big></big></small></small></small></small></small><br>
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style="font-size: 14px;"></span></font><small><small><small><small><small><big><big><big><big><b
style="text-decoration: underline;"><i><span style="color: fuchsia;">u
cant innerstand yourself without
understanding the world</span></i></b></big></big></big></big></small></small></small></small></small><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial;">3</span><font face="Arial"><span
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span
style="color: rgb(102, 102, 102);"><big><big><span
style="font-family: Arial Black;"><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">Travels
</span>round the <span style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">Atlas</span></span></big></big><small><span
style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);"> </span></small><big
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"><span style="font-weight: bold;"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 153, 0);">(Mountains </span>of Morocco)<br>
<big>PART TWO</big><br>
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<div style="text-align: center; background-color: rgb(255, 255, 255);"><span
style="font-size: 14pt; font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">khenifra,
morocco. friday</span><br>
<big>a <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">glimpse </span>beneath
the <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">veil</span></big></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span><br
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">khenifra
sits so high in the mountains <span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[and i do mean high]</span>,
that it suffers from sporadic electricity. <br>
<br>
no
"news" has reached me for 6 days. why, unlike everyone else here,
should i assume there IS news every day? news breaks out from
time to time, having built up during the preceding, no?</span><br
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<br style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">anyway,
after
9 days in morocco </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">i am <big><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">so so so glad</span></big> i made the
move! my body has averaged 2 hours of sunshine per day, and feels
now like it's <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">shining</span></big>.
i begin
to re-possess my own inner heat - somewhere at the base of the spine
i fancy. <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">solar power?</span></big>
look, the
closest <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Mega Entity</span> in
this part of the universe radiates continually what we humants
interpret as "<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">light</span>" and "<span
style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">heat</span>" (cos that's all we're
capable of perceiving!) so it's almost a <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">sacred blessing</span> to
have this Being pour His/Her/Its beneficence over your body's
skin.
call it vitamin D if u insist as long as you accept you're making chimp
talk :)<br>
<br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">my health
is returning; i've
become much more sociable and tolerant <span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">(than
i was when i
finally left london)</span>. still retreat to my room often,
however, and
feel tired, yet can't sleep.<br>
<br style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">did i
mention the berber musicians going for it outside the hotel as
i write this? well, as i wrote the last few lines</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">, i was
thinking of going out to catch some of the <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">live music</span> (which might not
recur after all) but it's stopped. now what? if
they kick off again into one of those extended flights i'll go
down... i hear a snatch of <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">marley</span>
on the system. it stops.</span><br
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<div style="text-align: center;">¥¥¥¥
¥¥¥¥ ¥¥¥¥</div>
<br style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">just
got back. the music </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">kicked
off again so i
went. turned out to be one of those hand-round-the-cymbals
things where you're invited to bang in. i declined as i usually
do these days. my big breakthrough, though, was a new refusal
line that nobody believed but hugely everyone enjoyed for a number of
reasons:<br>
<br style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-style: italic;">"i
promised my father i would only play the bagpipes. do you have any?" </span><br
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
these
guys respect tribal and family loyalties. though they know am
joking they admire whence my excuse is coming :)</span><br>
<br>
<div style="text-align: center;"><span
style="font-size: 14pt; font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">khenifra,
morocco. saturday<br>
</span></span></div>
<div style="text-align: center;"><big><big><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Leila <font
color="#999999">and
</font>Johnny</span></big></big><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span><br>
<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">lay
lady lay</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">lay
across your big brass bed</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">lay
lady lay</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">lay
while the night is still ahead.</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">whatever
colours you have in your mind</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">i'll
show them to you</span></span><br
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">make
you see them shine!</span></span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
when
our mint tea arrived</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">, my
current student/guide, </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">rafik,
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">invited
her to join our table. it was quite un-moroccan the way she moved
over from where she'd been sitting alone.<br>
<br style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">her
name was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Leila </span>while
mine was <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">johnny </span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[did i mention how i
use this
name when traveling in non-english speaking countries? it's
easy on the tongue, it's recognised worldwide, but very few people have
ever met a Johnny! it turns out that everyone loves johnny!
i think it's a name from early american movies, and johnny was always
this
handsome, easygoing, <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">democratic </span>kinda
'<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">californian</span>' guy who you
couldn't help loving and the senoritas couldn't
resist.]</span><br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">i'd
spotted her twice before around town, chatting with groups of local
lads. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">a </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic;">relatively </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">free
moroccan lady?! watching her close-up now talking with rafik, she
was clearly older, almost a young aunt? (not that these
sex-starved mountain youths would bother about that!). our eyes
kept
meeting. everything seemed suddenly very clear. i swear a
cloud dissolved over the snow peaks.<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">her
small, shapely body</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> was in
jeans,</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">a black
waistcoat, glittery purple blouse, t-shirt and wrapped arabic
scarf. lovely rather that beautiful, but that could be the
european talking; </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">her face
was pale, striking; her </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">deep
black eyes</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> looking
almost haunted, full of eastern prom- <span
style="font-family: Arial; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[oh
for goddess' sake, johnny!]</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span><br
style="font-family: Arial; font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">
<br>
naturally we spoke french, and, in her deeply caressing voice, she
seemed <span style="font-style: italic;">very
</span>french, even <span style="font-style: italic;">too </span>french.
she <span style="font-style: italic;">looked </span>like</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> a '60s
existentialiste, and </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic;">sounded </span>like some old french movie
diva - she'd probably practised her french in the cinema! - well,
johnny was
an old american movie hero himself! <br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">rafik
later told me she'd immediately
started talking about "<big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Love</span></big>"
- Leila reported that <span style="font-style: italic;">he'd</span>
proposed marriage in the first minute! </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">her first
serious line to me was when i finally got the chance to ask, in
english, where she was from: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"i remember
noseeng. i forget more
evree day. i am
noseeng."</span> she went back into french and stayed
there. too
french, you see? i rejoiced, though, that it wasn't going to be
tourist chatter. when she went too far and said, <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"quand j'ai
oubliee tout, je serai disparu en tout"</span> </span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">(when i've forgotten
everything</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> i shall finally
disappear) </span>i replied, or johnny did, in french from now on: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"no, you ARE more
when you KNOW less."</span><br>
<br>
i quoted the zen saying that the Student knows more every day but the
Seeker knows <span style="font-style: italic;">less</span>. i
felt her whole inner body lean towards mine. i had something to
give
this being. <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"et
enfin, quand
tu sais rien, tu verras tout comme il est!"</span> <span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">(and finally, when
you
KNOW nothing, you will SEE everything as it is.) </span> <br>
<br>
</span><big style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; font-style: italic;">"what is Love?"</span></big><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> Leila,
her eyes no longer looking IN, asked Johnny. <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"it's a word
humans use to try to
capture a tiny bit of some of the things and levels that exist."</span>
it's much easier to say these kinds of things
in french. i'd tell a french girl her eyes are <span
style="font-style: italic;">"like
the sky"</span> (it's poetry in french); i'd NEVER say that to an
english girl.<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">she's
very touch-feely, often touching rafik's sleeve in
pleasant surprise or mock shock. does she
realise what her language <span style="font-style: italic;">means </span>to
these young (frustrated) moroccan
guys? but maybe, if you <span style="font-style: italic;">won't</span>
be intimidated from going out in the
evenings, a certain physical intimacy with the males is safer than a
withdrawn
preciousness?<br>
<br>
sensing a deep loss in her, despite the </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">existential
angst </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic;">style</span>, i
speak at some length of my Eternity idea. i want to try it out on
others anyway. i tell her that <big>nothing </big>ever
disappears, that nothing <big>CAN </big>ever disappear, that we get
to
repeat every aspect of every experience thousands and thousands of
times. i rant a bit.
something tells me strong and clear that she <span
style="font-style: italic;">wants </span>to hear this, or at
least she wants to hear <span style="font-style: italic;">SOMETHING</span>.
something <span style="font-style: italic;">NEW! </span> that the
only and best gift i can give is to help her move out of wherever she
is.<br>
<span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[back in my room
afterwards, i want to make notes, like these.
but
mostly i want to curl up on my bed and recall and re-live.]<br>
<br>
</span></span>
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<div style="text-align: center;">
<big><span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">i was right about the french</span> </span>
</span></span></big>
<div style="text-align: left;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">rafik and
i met her next day at the vista point on the edge of town. he'd
been telling me that her husband (lover?) had been french (!),
but that he'd died suddenly of a brain
tumour and left her a widow. widowed so young! my heart
opens to
her and i'm even more certain i want to give her <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">something</span><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">.</span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
under another cloudless blue moroccan sky we're sitting looking a
half mile down on the redbrown and green valley below. part of me
wishes i was alone to contemplate the scene. instead i opt to
talk to her more about <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Eternity</span>.
i rant again (too strong; i <font color="#ff00ff"><i>'declaim
confidently'</i></font>). she will re-experience EVERY detail of what
she
thinks she has lost. she'll even experience them hundreds of
thousands of times. it's going in deep, i KNOW it. and want
it - for her; to shine potential into the dark corners she felt would
never see the light of day
again... new growths that can continue after i've exited her mountain
top.<br>
</span>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
i say: rafik told me about your marriage? not marriage, she tells
me. she only married once, when she was 19. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">feeling
my way forward, watching one hawk chase another in long beautiful
sweeping glide</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">s below
us, i feel Leila and i are paralleling them.</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span><br>
<br>
she jumps to her feet. she's always suddenly jumping
up and doing something else, like she's jumping away from something to
which she was getting too close.
it's mostly nerves, but something else too, and what does that mean
anyway? she says, with her ex,
she also used to giggle and jump. her eyes are very bright today;
as is her life attitude; i sense it's the positive effect am having on
her and feel even more confident and ... expansive.<br>
<br>
and sometimes her body will suddenly shake, she tells me, and wants to
know
why. i
work it out, but don't manage to complete it till the next day, that
it's
her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Whole Body</span> breaking
through... our
culture helps to break down our bodies into separate self-functioning
sections (writing, football, ironing) and we lose contact with our <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Whole
Body</span>, which always works with the whole body involved.
when her
body jumps it's her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Whole Body</span>
kicking in.<br>
<br>
what a lovely creature she is! and how her <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Love </span>has been closed
down! i begin to appreciate more her refusal to be
browbeaten into submission. she's a brave foxy lady! but i
fear for her too, she seems almost too alive to survive. and all
that time without a man! without a man to appreciate her.
to worship her.<br>
<br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: center;">¥¥¥¥
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</div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">back
at the hotel cafe i leave her with rafik. i feel the need to make
some notes, and also to have a shower. i'm also making a point of
being sexually non-aggressive - which isn't really hard for me these
days tho
i track the ghosts of my <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Desires
</span>while simply enjoying where we are;
goddess knows i'm
familiar enough with Disappointment not to be bothered if it comes
again. <br>
<br>
free? <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">free at last?!</span></big><br>
<br>
up in my room, sensing things
over, i intuit she's beginning to accept me as
her husband, only <span style="font-style: italic;">not</span>.<span
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> a preordained sense of
erotic destiny has captured my loins and my mind. i decide to say
to her, in my
prophet voice (because she </span><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">needs </span><span
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">some
answers, a way forward, at the very least the renewed possibility that
there COULD be a way forward) that, for a woman, solitude is
worse than for a man because she is so much about Beauty which needs
must be
worshipped to <span style="font-style: italic;">exist </span>(can't
find the french word for worship and settle on appreciate). and,
more or less, i
would be happy to perform that service <big
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">:)</big></span><br
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<br style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
but there's no sign of Leila when i go down.<span
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> later i worked out that by
then it was
too late for her to be seen hanging out around town. it's
outrageous enough that she does it till an hour after dark when
practically no other woman is seen, except of course the western girls.</span><br
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: center;">¥¥¥¥
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
next day Leila tells me she'd been building up to inviting me to her
house the day before; she'd decided; and <span
style="font-style: italic;">now </span>she
was inviting me. having
agreed our plan, with a sensuous rush in my ears, the rest of the day
is shaped by this. gradually, but
very gradually, i become more sexual until the early evening walk to
her
house.<br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: right;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">the
three of us head towards the little lake below the town. half way
up again, while rafik was talking to someone, i put my
hand down the back of her pants and squeezed and told her: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"you have a
nice, tight ass,"</span> and she draws away giggling as i draw away too
(to give her her space), and
then
she's leaning and squirming against me, like that.<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!"</span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
i don't know at this point that there's a whole <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Moroccan Romance</span> <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span>thing going
on as well as what i'm experiencing.<br>
<span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[i'm writing
these notes 48 hours later, half hoping this tale is
a Short Story; cos it's wonderful as that; magical, and penetrating.]</span><br>
<br>
through the town, where my behaviour quickly changes, with me being
more
restrained than she who's always touchyfeely when she talks to a guy.<br>
<br>
suddenly there's a blackout. there have been 2 since i arrived in
</span><span
style="font-size: 14pt; font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">khenifra.
both lasted an hour or so. this one is to go on so long that i
several times wonder <span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[and still do] </span>if
our energies had blown some
historical fuse. lamps and candles start winking on, </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">and then
bonfires</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">; it's
really
very romantic, and there's that word again.<span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"><span style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
the mores of seduction - the hidden moves and signs.</span> </span>Leila
says: <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"i
shall go ahead
and you will follow me."</span> i grok immediately
and say <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"i'll
be 10 minutes behind you". </span>i <span style="font-style: italic;">think
</span>she threw back over
her shoulder: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"it doesn't have
to be TEN minutes!"</span><br>
<br>
with darkness and now with the blackout, of course, we seem pretty safe
from
prying moroccan eyes - but it was to be a theme that developed and
reverberated <span style="font-style: italic;">all night.</span>
and i <span style="font-style: italic;">still </span>don't know how
real it all
was. i guess she didn't really know either. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">which is
half
the problem. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">maybe
nobody knows! maybe you just have to accept that what happened is
what happened. but i know if there had been a law against what we
were about to
do then we could have taken absolute precautions. as it was, our
little operation was a bit of a mess from a security point of
view. several people, for example, passed us on the road, and <span
style="font-style: italic;">"<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">the
widow of </span></span></span><span
style="font-size: 14pt; font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><small
style="font-family: Arial Black; font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">khenifra"</small>
<small>and <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"the
long haired hippy crusader poet"</span> </small></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">were
pretty hard to miss and even harder to forget.<br>
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><br>
her breasts are tucked behind corset-like armour.
she has, as i said, the tightest little ass. at some point in the
walk to her house her hand is fluttering between my waist and the top
of my legs
like some lost but wondering bird and i
place it on the package. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!" </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">did i
mention we were both wearing jeans?<br>
<br>
it's a bit of a blur now, and indeed <span style="font-style: italic;">then</span>;
it felt like (and was intended by Nature to be) a long, slow-motion
fall into bed, but this wasn't Smith Street, Oldtown, England. i
do remember her saying at one point (i was walking behind her with my
hand half stuck down the front of her very tight jeans) <span
style="font-style: italic;">"<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">you've
had many women, johnny,"</span></span> which i decided was best left
unanswered.<br>
<br>
finally at
the house, with the whole star-studded firmament conspiring in
our affair. i remind her of her dead man, she says, more than
once. but she doesn't mean anything so banal as looks.
perhaps
they met at university but i've long since decided not to proceed on
that
level. what's between her and me is that she gets new hope and
sparkle and juice and i get <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">a
lovely erotic glimpse behind the veil :)<br>
<br>
</span></big></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!"</span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span></span><br>
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<div style="text-align: center;"><span
style="font-size: 14pt; font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0); background-color: rgb(51, 204, 0);">khenifra,
morocco. saturday</span></span><br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[now am
remembering Bushra from last year's caravanserai club trip to
morocco. now i understand her! now i'm <span
style="font-style: italic;">ready </span>for her! now i know
about </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">today's </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">moroccan
womanhood! she said in an email that she might join me up
here. now my fantasy life is taking me over. am thinking of
Leila,
Bushra and me in the next valley! the three of us!
exploring
the alleys, highways and byways of <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-family: Arial Black;">Free Love!</span></span><br
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">
<br style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">
<span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">i stopped
writing there for a few moments.<br>
<br>
one thing i know
now that i did not know yesterday is that moroccan
women definitely perceive the relative <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">freedom </span>of
the West, and those
who know a little are attracted by the
european man. his gentleness, his laid-backness, his lack of that
truly terrible possessiveness of the arab male. to give
you an idea: Leila </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">told me last night at
her house that her </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">marriage, at 19, was
to a guy
she met when they were both studying at university. he said of </span><span
style="font-style: italic; font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">course
</span><span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">she could
go on with her
studies and other things when they were married but, <span
style="font-style: italic;">the very morning
after the wedding</span>, (and particularly after possessing her) his
attitude completely changed, Jekyll & Hyde stylee, and <span
style="font-style: italic;">this male monster "ordered"</span>
her </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;">that <span
style="font-style: italic;">"you are now my wife, and all
his will
end!"</span> she was locked in, </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">beaten to
make her submit to her new <span style="font-style: italic;">"Master"</span>,
and
finally escaped after 3
months.
<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;">
though she, it seems, <span style="font-style: italic;">bothered </span>to
go through the whole muslim divorce procedure over several years, i
imagine this sort of thing is happening to a great
many shocked young muslim brides, and what are they to do <span
style="font-style: italic;">afterwards? </span> even if they want
to marry again it will be very difficult, for they are now
tainted. and if they DON'T want to EVER marry again <span
style="font-style: italic;">what are they to do?!</span> they
probably have to move to a different city to feel safe from their <span
style="font-style: italic;">"lord, master and husband"</span> who </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">might feel the right
or even <span style="font-style: italic;">duty </span>to justify his
"rights".</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;"> and the terrible
truth is that they really CAN'T find some <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-weight: bold;">Loving </span>with
any arab males because they can be so violently possessive and
jealous. so now</span><span
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> i
understand the
whole Bushra thing! why she hung out with us guys, what she
actually <span style="font-style: italic;">wanted </span>when we were
wondering if she was going to steal our money, or get us to marry her,
or so we'd pay her. young widows, probably thousands of them, are
really just seeking a <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"><span
style="font-style: italic;">Way Out!</span> </span> some <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-style: italic;">Love!</span>
it's all
absolutely Normal - the word Leila most used when referring to how she
or we might be
seen by muslim society - in her house, during a blackout.</span><br
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><br
style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">
<span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">i'd guess Leila
would have strung
along with our party just as Bushra did, on <span
style="font-style: italic;">any </span>level up for anything so
long as it was an aspect of <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">love</span>.
all over morocco, in the larger
cities, there must be tens of thousands of poor female
creatures desperate to be loved, gently, adoringly, respectfully and
passionately! <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">is their young
beauty to be unseen <span style="font-style: italic;">forever?!</span></span>
is what i consider the loveliest of all Goddess' creations to be
NEVER appreciated or <span
style="font-weight: bold; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">worshipped</span>?!
goddess, i keep noticing
in everyone's face these days what a tiny part of their potential they
actually <span style="font-style: italic;">experience</span>. we
live in the last hundred years of the stultifying Middle Ages and it's
a Human
Tragedy! for most humans alive today, catching even a fleeting
glimpse of our true possibilities would certainly drive them mad.]</span><br>
<br>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
i'm sitting on a chair in the kitchen with Leila crouched between my
legs, perched somewhat uneasily in her kitchen <span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">IN CASE SOMETHING
HAPPENS.</span> one of her bras is gone, and both our shirts
are untucked from our waists, when there's a knock on the door!
she's already lifted the candle and headed off, </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">tucking
her shirt in</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">.
there had been several
noises previously which she'd jumped up to check, actually
opening the door each time to look out and even call! <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-style: italic;"><br>
<br>
"halo! quelqun est la?"</span><br>
<br>
wow, i think, but i'm not really THINKING much at all. the hands
in my mind are still caressing the tight warm buttocks that are now
outside the house. but i did find it
a bit odd. one of her most frequent
comments was <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"i
want to live openly"</span> - like it would be EASY
but DEAD to play the Game. which may explain SOME of what
happened
last night.<br>
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><br>
anyway, it's <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">"only"</span>
named, the friend who <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"most comes to
visit me"</span>, and
who works for a german company in the valley below. <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span>i'm still adjusting to the FACT
of him sitting at the other end of the table, while she's telling me
how he's
always cared for her. he's a blacker, handsome young dude with
a nice smile which she draws out of him constantly as they talk.
and she saying how, if she finally decides to give up her <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">freedom</span>, he's
prepared to marry her - like, the implication is clear, that's very
honourable and decent of
him. to overlook her hanging out with europeans and being
divorced and so on i
suppose.<br>
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><br>
though she's actually sitting close to him, handcontacting him and
babbling away in </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">fast,
excited </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">french/arabic,
i do catch that she's explaining how she's always been very <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">honest </span>with
him about what she <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">WANTS</span>,
she's been <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">open</span>, and
he's grinning his beautiful white
smile like he agrees, and his face goes from darkly serious to smiling
and
back. and later, after he's gone, she tells me she doesn't know
<span style="font-style: italic;">how </span>he'll react, or what he
might do (about my visit). <br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">he's
quite
liberated through working alongside the germans, she says, but she's
clearly very worried. <br>
<br>
<span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"what are
you afraid he might do?"</span><br>
<br>
<span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"he ees a
good man, a kind man," </span><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">she says, settling down on my knees
again. </span> </span><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"but i don't know
WHAT HIS RELIGION WILL MAKE HIM DO!"</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
<br>
all at once it's all very <big><big><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">real</span></big>.
</big>the blond christian is 2 miles from town, in the middle of a
moonless night, during a blackout, stranded and disshevilled at the
widow's house, and the fiancee <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"></span><span
style="color: rgb(51, 51, 255);"></span>might be rounding up a possee
of fundamentalist believers from the village at this very minute.
or an angry
mullah? <br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: right;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">ZZ extend?</span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">it
takes an age <span style="font-style: italic;">(an era?) </span>for
things to settle again. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">but
slowly our natural slow-mo fall into bed picks up pace again, all <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"absolutely
normal"</span> (as i continually point out to her while her
Nature gets back on its feet). we're down to one veil now; i've
had her
breasts out, large-small with
quite enormous purple-brown nipples that jump about like she
does. and i tell her so, and i want her to <span
style="font-style: italic;">know </span>because her
beauty has (presumably) </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">been </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> so
unseen for so long. they're firm
but tricky, and i've kissed and licked each perky tip, and done it like
a junior priest to a middling goddess, with 100% attention, respect and
erotic gratitude, and she's accepted it as this, and is starting to
reach deeper levels of relaxation and sensuousness.<br>
</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!"</span></span><br>
<br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">though
somehow our conversation continued along the way, my brain was too
warm and wet to remember much now. really it was reassuring
sounds that
spiritual animals make to each other, contented purrs and soft
growls. mine is mainly saying: <span style="font-style: italic;">Everything
is absolutely
fine. and totally normal and natural. live out whatever was
lacking. do those things you dreamed of doing. go for those
thing you'll wish tomorrow you'd done. do WHATEVER you
want. we both KNOW what is right and
natural and absolutely </span><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"NORMAL"</span><span
style="font-style: italic;">.
we KNOW. the moment is ours, let's make memories and visions that
will turn us on in years to come. <br>
<br>
</span></span>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">then
i realise she's explaining or confessing to me that she'd TOLD
named i might be coming to visit! she might even have said she'd
invited him to drop by and <span style="font-style: italic;">meet </span>me;
i was pretending to understand more
than i did to keep our flow. part of
her <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">brave </span>(but
foolhardy?) desire to live openly & honestly i suppose. is
there an
added french thing? <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">liberte´
</span>& <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">egalite´</span>?
but</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> she's up
and off again would i like some coffee?<br>
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span><br>
i guess i made a <span style="font-style: italic;">move </span>at
this
point</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">, though
i didn't see it at the time</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">.
but it suggests i came to a decision when it felt more like a
Resolution simply emerged. after being ultra <span
style="font-style: italic;">ultra </span>patient,
easygoing and liberal, and giving her all the time she needs or wants,
<br>
and after i've kept saying this very thing to her, to <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"take your time,"</span><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"> </span>that <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"you don't
have to go any further,"</span> but <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"if u want to
then DO it, let's DO what we want NOW, take
this opportunity dans les deux mains in both hands," </span> stuff
like that in rusty french<br>
i finally declare, in English first and then in French: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"we got to move
things more horizontal, babe, where's
the bedroom? we can't spend the whole evening sitting here in
case someone comes to the door."</span><br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: right;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"></span>she's
already on her feet, picking
up a candle and heading into the dark doorway out of the kitchen.
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"why do you want
to find the bed?"</span> she trills</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">, <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"are you
sleepy?" </span>a joke? a throwaway line, like many this
evening?<br>
<br>
<span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"au
contraire"</span> i respond, remembering the phrase from some childhood
classroom. she giggles, and disappears; but this time with me
carrying<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> the
little oil lamp following after </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">as she
disappears again (to change costume? like
removing her final bra because it appears to be locked?) (only joking)
(i
think). i check out each room, i have a needed
pee; my erection's been standing to attention all night but with no
sense of urgency,
my mind, my soul have been savouring each erotic moment, finely etching
in </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">each </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">detail.<br>
<br>
i've found the bedroom; a lonely bed, not made up, a bed that wasn't
expecting
visitors. i've sorted a red sleeping bag and two heavy
wool blankets, and she fluffs around and finally comes in and lies
down. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!"
</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">just as
things are beginning to get <span style="font-style: italic;">much </span>more
interesting than was
possible at
table, she's </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">suddenly
on her feet </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">again,
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">pulling </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">up and
half closing her jeans, and starts complaining
in a loud voice, mostly arabic, how they won't leave her
alone, how all she wants is to live her life as SHE wants to, <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">openly </span>and <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">honestly</span>, how
if they came and found us in her bed would they think?!<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">now it's
all coming out. the culture. the religion.
the arab male. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">all the
men in the town want her but they
say
different things behind her back. how <span
style="font-style: italic;">she </span>only wants to live openly
and freely. </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">the <big><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Insult </span></big>of it all!<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">and <span
style="font-style: italic;">'</span><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-style: italic;">who
cares</span><span style="font-style: italic;"> what prisoners of
history think?'</span> enquires the <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">european, </span>and <span
style="font-style: italic;">they </span>care answers she, and they
may come,
and we should not be in the bedroom. there's another bedroom, a
small one, which would be safer. why? because <span
style="font-style: italic;"></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">it's not,
though i don't think she actually said it, the <span
style="font-style: italic;">marital </span>bedroom.</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic;"> and it's just off
the kitchen!</span> <br>
<br>
(easier to retreat from).<br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: right;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">gradually
i begin to tell her that things ARE changing. at first
she protests <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"on
the surface, yes,"</span> but i persevere, perhaps i wear her down, and
she starts to
just listen; i tell her there is no doubt about it, that i am coming
from the Future where everyone is heading, how she is in the avant
garde of her people, how she is actually leading the way back to the
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Natural</span>.
by the next day i'm talking of her writing her thoughts on all these
things, how she could be leading the next generation of moroccan
feminist writers. and she's agreeing, she sees how <span
style="font-style: italic;">this </span>is a frontier.<br>
<br>
<span style="font-family: Arial; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">[am having
insights into the problem the Megatripolitans have when they timedance
back to our point in <span style="font-style: italic;">their </span>history.
THEY know how things turned out, but we DON'T. we can still see
the edifices of the Old Power but cannot know how bereft and
empty they are, and that they will NEVER return to destroy and punish
us again, that those
days are truly over. you see, every previous time of relaxation
the Old Dino force has <span style="font-style: italic;">always </span>come
back harder than ever.]<br>
<br>
</span></span>
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<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">oh,
the <big><span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Fear</span></big>!<br>
<br>
Leila's back between my legs in the kitchen now. but, though i've
pulled out
John
Thomas a couple of times for her to stroke, admire and </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">even</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> worship
, i confess to still being distracted by what </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">the
outside world</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> MIGHT be
getting up to , especially as <span style="font-style: italic;">she </span>starts
at any sound. i re-run the terrible fate of the widow in <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Zorba the Greek</span>.
i remembered how, earlier, the first few times i'd seen
her, she'd seemed just on the beginning of the very edge of extremity,
of madness, her face pale, pale, open yet drawn at the same time.<br>
<br>
</span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!"</span></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><br>
<span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;">[back in london
a good jewish friend asked if i saw the Muslim Problem
for real now and i replied that i'd really seen it like the British
middle ages, a question of being stuck in </span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;">History</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0); font-family: Arial;">.]</span><br>
</span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span>talk about reality tv, this
feeling that the Moral Majority could come crashing in at any moment,
that every millimetre my fingers crept into her increased the
likelihood. was it mostly in her mind? but then how had it
gotten there? <br>
<br>
yet time is passing, and dust eventually settles - doesn't it?
we're discreetly diddling and doodling like </span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">we're
being <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Overseen</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"> </span>by
cctv
cameras. i've suggested she change to a long, loose skirt so
she's equally ready for the Natural OR the Demonic, and that's
proving quite effective. but the hour is getting late; we can't
recline when every cell in our bodies is <span
style="font-style: italic;">ordering </span>it, and she
keeps jumping up at the most erotic moments. like she's too
highly
sprung along the puritan/<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">passion
</span>cusp, but she's not to blame! <br>
<br>
i ask at some point if we're moving too fast and would be content with <span
style="font-style: italic;">any
</span>answer she might give; even <span style="font-style: italic;">this
</span>is enough, and i'm grooving
every nanosecond.<br>
<br>
<span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"non,
johnny!"</span><br>
</span>
<div style="text-align: right;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">all
the time now i'm telling her to feast her eyes and her senses, to do
ANYTHING she wants to do, or has dreamed of doing, to do it NOW, to
fill her soul with memories and visions. i say more than once
that women have been taught they shouldn't be sexually active and
curious and experimental but it's not TRUE! to deny these sides
of ourselves is ABnormal! and encouraging her on, and letting her
see my body (we're
finally in/on the bed in the small bedroom, we're both stripped to the
waist and her long skirt
is around her waist <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">IN CASE.</span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> <span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif; font-weight: bold;"><br>
<br>
<br>
</span></span></span>
<div style="text-align: center;">¥¥¥¥
¥¥¥¥ ¥¥¥¥<br>
</div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif; font-weight: bold;"><br
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">
</span></span></span>
<div style="text-align: center;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><big
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Leila & Johnny Weren't Lovers</big></span><br>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><big
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Oh Lordy How They Didn't Love!</big></span><br>
</div>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">so now we
have our time. we are both naked (Leila was never <span
style="font-style: italic;">quite </span>naked, always a scarf, or a
piece of material around her middle, or her long dress, now like a
belt, something to hold on to?) and
looking, drinking </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">in </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">each
other's body. i've been telling her all evening that absolutely
not a centimetre further shall we travel than she wishes and she has
nodded </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">seriously,</span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"> <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);"></span></span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">gratefully
</span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">(Manna from
Heaven to a Muslim lady:)</span>. while i know not
what chasms we surfed, she and i, without looking down, i <big><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Trust</span></big>, above all, that
she has found another <span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Good Man</span>,
like her ex. to her, i pray, it came as a ray of sunlight after a
long, grey mist (missed?). <br>
<br>
she led the way, or i allowed myself to be drawn more and further into
her until, at some point, i asked again <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255); font-style: italic;">"are we moving
too fast?"</span> (this is the stage, after all, when the male most
reveals his acquisitive side) and this time she said <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"oui, un peu," </span>and
i was more than happy to lay back. </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">actually </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">i was
beginning to get sleepy, it had been an emotional roller coaster of a
night. and, besides, the actual physical activity is starting to seem
more like
a way of ENDING a <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Perfectly
Timeless Moment.</span></big><br>
<br>
but comes a point when she announces these exact words: <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"johnny!
now i weesh you penetrate me. i weesh for you to be inside of moi"</span><br>
<br>
i kiss those arab lips once more as i move my body across her; i
separate her legs; i'm gazing once again into her dark maw where the
deeply purply </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">lèvres</span><span
style="font-family: "Arial Black"; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">(french
for lips as she's informed me) post their kiss at me. she's half
sitting up, touching Prince Charles with a finger tip and stretching
its single crowning drop of love juice into a silver thread, and she
says: <span style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"qu'est-ce
que
c'est ca?"</span> (what's that, meaning the drop).<br>
<br>
i go to answer but she's moved away again and it's not till the next
day, on the little pink volcanic cliff above the village, that i get to
explain to her what it was (i'm assuming she'd never had the luxury of <span
style="font-style: italic;">studying </span>it before), and how it <span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">PROVED
</span>that Allah intended us to do our normal natural things
together. <br>
<br>
<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);"></span>but, as she's pulling her
long skirt back up her legs, <span style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">JUST
IN CASE</span>, i'm getting weary, besides being more than blissed and
blessed with all that HAS happened. i could have made a
point of explaining that drop, <big><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">The Drop That Broke The Camel's Back</span></big>,
but i guessed her query came from some half-assed scientific pamphlet
about sexual diseases - ills which would certainly pose more of a
danger to her, a moroccan woman, than to western welfare-state
moi. but it was waaay too late in the night for <span
style="font-style: italic;">'scientific
explanations'</span>; besides which, would she have <span
style="font-style: italic;">believed </span>me at that
point?! she'd already said <span
style="font-style: italic; color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">"and if i have a
baby?"</span> to which i'd had no answer, certainly no condom. in
an arab country?!! well, <big><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">next
time for sure :)</span></big><br>
<br>
that, it </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">turns out
</span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">(if this
is </span></span></span></span><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);"><span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);"><span
style="font-family: Times New Roman,Times,serif;"><span
style="font-family: Arial Black; color: rgb(153, 153, 153);">a Short
Story), plumbed the depth of our intimacy together. the <span
style="color: rgb(0, 0, 0);">Fundamentalist Threat</span> virtually
dissolved as soon as she was in the other bed, and i felt absolutely
wonderful and fulfilled, and slept the sleep of the experientially
sated.<br>
<br>
i guess the result or lack of it could be claimed as a triumph for
Either Side :) technically, and perhaps much more than that
(especially here?) we did <span style="font-style: italic;">not </span>Make
Love together. perhaps Hamed's
mullah can accept the technicality. for me, we most certainly <big
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">Made Love! </big><span
style="color: rgb(255, 0, 255);">:) <br>
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